“Whoever dwells in the shelter of the Most High will rest in the shadow of the Almighty.”—Psalm 91:1
“The LORD is my shepherd, I lack nothing….he leads me beside quiet waters, he refreshes my soul…Even though I walk through the darkest valley, I will fear no evil, for you are with me.…”—Psalm 23
What do we do when life doesn’t go the way we planned it? These last couple of weeks have had some disappointments in them for me; some minor, some major, but all of them having the same effect: I’m struggling with trusting God. How could he let this annoying stuff happen? Is he really in control of the details of my life? Does he care?
I realized I wasn’t “resting in the shadow” of God at all; I felt disconnected from him. But it was my own fault. I hadn’t been “dwelling” in his shelter. Sometimes our relationship with God is based on us. Our feelings, wants, desires, dreams, goals…us. Now it’s great to talk with God about ourselves and those things, but they cannot be the entire substance of our relationship with the Father.
In order to trust God in the hard times, we must abide in him and learn more about him in the good times. I mean, think about it…God calls himself our “Father” (Romans 8:14-16). Sometimes my Dad makes different choices for me than I’d like, but I trust him because 1) I know him and I know he is trustworthy, and 2) I have a solid relationship with him that reminds me he’s looking out for me and loves me. It’s sort of the same way with God. I was doubting God because I hadn’t been learning more about him and building a solid relationship with him; I was too focused on myself and controlling my life.
So maybe I need to take a break and come humbly to the throne of Jesus, sit at his feet, and give everything I am to worship him (John 12:1-8; Luke 11:38-42). Maybe I need to learn to dwell in God’s presence and get to know my Father better so that I can trust him with tomorrow (Matthew 6:33-34).
Then I can know, deep down, that God is working all things out for my good because I am his child (Romans 8:28).
And so can you.